I'm stuck here... i thought we're gonna move somewhere else... whew... too bad...

But still God is good, always good, taught me humility, it was hard at first, but when i had taken the first step the rest was easy. Thank you Jesus!

I want a vacation, wish i can have one...

i found her... it may never be the same as before but we can start again... that's another thing to thank the Lord.

cant think of anything to put here...

wish we could go on a vacation like 1 or 2 months away from this place.

haaayyy sooo boorring, i want to have a rest even for just a week of doing nothing... no housework, no everything, just rest, eat and lie down, my body i guess needs recharging...

i wonder if there a camp for adults? if there is, maybe i can try joining it.

it's already 2:30 am, and i'm still awake huhoommm... so long to finish fixing computers, im getting sleepy already, im talking nonsense...

A Friend In You?

Just when I thought I found the one I've been searching for so long
Just when I thought I found the one I can tell everything what's on my mind
Just when I thought I have somebody who can depend on me
Just when I thought I have a friend whom I can rely on
Just when I thought like that then everything falls...

Why is it easy to make a mistake and so hard to undo it?
Why is it easy to say something hurtful and so hard to take it back?
Why is it easy to think that a person had done something bad to us when we haven't had the facts first?
Why is it when we thought that everything is already ok, and then something happens that shatters us from within?

I thought I found a friend in you
For a very long time I've been searching for that special person
And from those times that we have shared...
I thought I found a friend in you
But I think what I thought was wrong
So I guess I have to start all over again
And keep on looking for that special person whom I can call a real friend...

Or maybe... just maybe... I'm destined to be alone...

nothing much to blog... been working working and working these past few days... whew...

luis' skin is getting better already, he looks like a sort of fish with all those scale like thing on his arms...

always raining here... haaaaayyyy... kakatamad to go places, want to sleep the whole day but can't do it.

merry christmas everyone, since the month ends in "ber" christmas decorations are already displayed here, christmas songs are played, some house have their "parols" already hanging by the windows... nice... have to save money for the christmas season, have to buy lotsa presents... aarrggghhh... buhuhu i'm not rich... i'm poor as a church mouse... christmas is spending season also... lol.. whew...

that's about it, nothing else.

had a horrible... horrible... horrible... friday (end of the day friday)...

will be out for a week, no blogs, no internet, no computer... whoa... buhuhuhuhu...

my daddy look so miserable, his arms are full of rashes, started a week ago but now it really got serious, his neck have rashes too and even his lips. He gets irritated at little things, get angry right away and yell at us, so that is why he is ssoooo hhmmpphh "kakainis..." he's not feeling well, he says it's so very itchy. So have to change places with him, that's why no computer for me for a whole week... too bad... so "kawawa naman my daddy." then just today when i told him to go swimming and not take a dip in the tub, he did the bath tub thing, now his rashes were like swelling, and he really really looks so kawawa, his face is swelling also... stubborn, told him not to do it, now he knows why...

all those days that he is so unbecoming, we try to move away from him, so last night we made an agreement the four of us, me zdi, daddy and yla who was half listening to - "not to get angry right away (especially our daddy)" remembering stephen... poor zdi, he only wanted to color the mcdo coloring book and he received "palo" from his daddy, because he and his ate were bickering at each other... wawa naman... and since he's always the makulit one he was the one who got the palo.

now for the funny news, i hope this sounds funny to those who will read this, we had this one night at k'quit and we were talking about our new "old" hp, so epang had this k700 with video, my daddy T610, tyanpol had this flipphone, and mine was a lousy (but just ok to me) T312, the first 3 hp have blue tooth, so they were testing it and so on... then i was watching them, especially tyanpol's coz he was trying to search the other two blue teeth (hehehe - plural of tooth right?) cellphone, then all of a sudden something came up he found a "blue tartar", we were all laughing wondering who's hp was that blue tartar, and of course we found out it was daddy... now tyanpol changed his' to blue tooth-dcay... funny? not ata? hehe

so that's all, maybe if I'm not too tired in evening after coming home from work, I can sneak in here...

wow, i got 80 hits here, hello everyone... if some of you are wondering why I'm logging in to ym, it's because i am too busy creating a blogskin, well it's fun and demands a lot of time, html is a new thing to me, I'm starting from scratch but I liked it... a lot... if you have anything to say just leave a message here, thank you.

ok... so that's for me, and here's a silly statement from Yla...
If you are watching SUGO (gma 7 - kapuso) teleserye, there's this "alay" (sacrifice) wherein her blood when it spills flares up. So Yla told me - "how come when Isabel have her monthly period she doesn't get burned, her clothes should be on fire down there..." -- hehehehehe silly girl... but she got a point though... oo nga naman.. blood din yun... hahaha

nothing exciting to blog... luga btw went to derm clinic to have his skin checked by a certified dermatologist, now he came home and told me he got sensitive skin.. hhmmpphhh... ppprrrpppp... nuts, he always wanted to be on the sensitive skin type, haha, as if its easy to take care of sensitive skin, now he tells me to buy him a dove soap with moisturizer its what he's supposed to use from now on, hahaha, nuts... now I'm thinking if next time he's gonna ask me to buy him lotion, gee that is so totally nuts... hahaha...

this is kinda late story... i forgot to put this in my last blog... it was like this, luga was holding zdi while we were taking the escalator and both of them were not looking where they were going, and so luga was on the escalator and zdi was outside, they created a commotion, so totally funny and annoying and scary... zdi was like, he was on the other side of the handrail where there are no stairs... so he was hanging while they were going up (his feet was about two or three steps above the ground)... could have thump the adult one holding him. so what luga did was he tried to pull zdi up, but there was something blocking, so he just went down (opposite the movement of the escalator and still holding zdi tightly) good thing luga was quick enough to do that... so we waited upstairs for them, boy if you can only see zdi's face, turned white (his lips was really bloodless)... haha (huhu) and his heart was beating so fassstt... he was behaving then after that like a really good boy... and his daddy was all smiles (really... i so wanted to kick him in the butt and erase that smile from his face) if it happened to me he would so totally nag at me, and I'd be humiliated... he's lucky I'm not like him, just asked him what happened and why they weren't looking where they were going. the ending was I took charge of zdi, can't trust anybody holding him... ok so that was it....

we watched The Valiants... its about birds in the armies, about a tiny tot of a bird (pigeon) who wanted to join the military, sending messages during world war II and they have an enemy falcon who is some kind of a general with two assistants who tries to get the messages the birds are carrying... anyway not that funny cartoon movie to me, a little cute, that's what i can say to it. But i did learn something that during those times in real life, animals did get war medals called "dickin medals" cool....

i'm sick and tired, physically and emotionally... for how long can i endure? i dont know, but if i reach my limit.... only God knows what will happen next.

what's the latest? well yla arrived yesterday and told me she's gonna compete for the Math regional quiz bee again... cool... same as last year (she got the sixth place), hope she does better this time. Anyway whatever happens I'm still proud of her, she does everything all by herself with so little help from me. Good luck my baby... whatever the outcome is I am always proud of you and I always love you.

---- there's a limit to what a person can take... if I can't take it anymore I'll just disappear and I am not going to leave any trace to wherever I am going... ---